Wednesday, May 30, 2012

manusia BIASA

im originally created to be a normal person.
and you, popped out from nowhere and disturb my life.
yes, memang susah nak buang benda yang aku sendiri tanam.
memang salah aku, wujudkan benda yang tak wujud.
tapi itu fitrah, yang aku tak boleh tolak.

tapi,
no matter how far you gonna go,
how long the journey i need to take on my way to catch you up,
it doesnt matter
cause,
i'll haunt you,
with all my determination and strength.

btw, i gonna take all these things happened
as one of my motivation to succeed here.

ill see you, one day. with a dr in front of my name :)



Friday, May 25, 2012

lesson

haih, memang lah kadang-kadang dunia yang kita lalui ni, kita tak tahu bila kita jumpa kawan dan bila kita jumpa lawan.

this is the first time ever, in my entire life, ive been back stabbed by someone that i knew. its kinda hurt somehow. tapi, yes aku mengaku, tindakan aku balas apa yang kau buat tu, memang keanak-anakan. yes, aku tahu aku sepatutnya handle benda ni dengan cara orang dewasa, tapi ikutkan perasaan marah, marah ini datang dari syaitan, aku tahu tu, aku dah plan nak balas, lebih dari apa yang kau dah buat.


tapi, bila aku fikir balik, kalau aku buat benda tu, maknanya aku akan end up buat kesilapan sama macam kau buat, and im not gonna be you, ever. Nauzubillahiminalzalik.

and, thanks, sebab kau dah bagi aku satu pengajaran besar, satu, jangan percaya semua orang kat sekeliling kita. dua, buat baik berpada-pada, tiga, handle situation dgn lebih matang. empat, arghh. banyak sangat benda yang kau dah bawak dalam hidup aku.thanks, anyway.

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

rindu =='

i gottta admit that i miss these faces, somehow. hahaha

 aca cik skema
 amalina makcik
 tudung batu b****? hahahahaha
 perhatian: nisa tak kurus, ini cuma ilusion. hahaha
 makcik gedik baju merah
 gedik semua
INSYI SI HOT MAMMA. 
 ainna si kurus :p
 yatyat
bieha gila, cantekk nyaaa. hahahaahahaha :p
waniwani

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Path OF Life

everybody passes numerous paths along the road of life. there's always a dilemma when it comes to choosing, and Allah is always the best answer.

ya Allah, guide me to the right path, drag me to the delight future, and please solve my dilemma.

since i was a little girl, i started to watch csi, bone, grey;s anatomy, house and it developed my loved towards a career which i have known that gonna sacrifices a lot of things in my life. making a decision to turn from being an engineer to a doctor is a very big decision that i've ever made in my life, because it involve money, time and feeling.

am i being to selfish that im not even thinking what if i fail on my way to be a doctor, and there's no turning back ever again? where should i place myself? marry a man and being a full time housewife? no. no. no. it's not even me. i sacrifice my feeling, my time, my money and even my SCHOLAR to chase something that i dont even see  it. will it worth my sacrifice.

and. I VOW TO MYSELF THAT IM NOT GONNA WASTE ALL THOSE GOOD THINGS HAPPENED IN MY LIFE.

and for my friends, which i dont prefer to write their name, (cause it gonna make me cry)
thankyou for all the moments, and knowing you is one of the best thing that ever happened to me. im sorry for being a jerk and disturb your life in these 5 month. but, trust me, you're one of the reason why i choose to stay back then, and the reason why i feel doubt to leave Universiti Teknologi Malaysia right now. may the short friendship that we built will remain forever. love you guys.