Sunday, August 24, 2014


I keep seeing you in my dreams, loving this girl who isn’t me.


im the type of girl that youll never see me cry or even sad. i wont show you the weakest side of me. not that im heartless. its just i dont want you to see how bad i am trying to cope with this situation.


I pretend to be strong so you won't see me weak. But inside I'm just a fragile little twig.

When I pretend to be strong,no one sees my hidden tears except Allah. When I'm sad and need a shoulder to cry on, no one supports me but Allah.

and i told Him a lot about you. 

have a good life ahead, sayang.

After all this time

After all this time,
you still haven’t left my mind
I still spend every moment wondering if you’re thinking of me too.
After all this time
I still torture myself thinking that you’ll call or maybe text
and I just stare at my phone for hours.
After all this time 
I know I shouldn’t. but I still love you
and I’m still yours.


A lot of people walk in and out of my life, but you’re one of the only people I ever really wanted to stick around. However, I couldn’t make you stay.


It’s always been you even when I didn't want it to be, even when it broke my heart over and over again. It’s just always been you.

Tuesday, August 19, 2014


Most people can’t tell the difference between a fake smile and a real one. It’s only because they don’t take the time to look into the eyes, the only part of the body that can’t psychically hold lies.

Sunday, August 10, 2014


sometimes i’m sad, and sometimes i’m angry; but right now i can’t feel anything, and i think this is worse.

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

No one

I'm the one who you can count every time you had a bad time. I'll be there. But when the world turns around, I always have nobody. Sometimes I just wanna have someone to tell me that it's okay for me to not being okay. To not feeling okay. But everytime I need it I always ended up telling my ownself that I'm okay. I have no one.