manusia BIASA

im originally created to be a normal person.

and you, popped out from nowhere and disturb my life.

yes, memang susah nak buang benda yang aku sendiri tanam.

memang salah aku, wujudkan benda yang tak wujud.
tapi itu fitrah, yang aku tak boleh tolak.

tapi,
no matter how far you gonna go,
how long the journey i need to take on my way to catch you up,
it doesnt matter
cause,
i'll haunt you,
with all my determination and strength.

btw, i gonna take all these things happened
as one of my motivation to succeed here.

ill see you, one day. with a dr in front of my name :)

lesson

haih, memang lah kadang-kadang dunia yang kita lalui ni, kita tak tahu bila kita jumpa kawan dan bila kita jumpa lawan.

this is the first time ever, in my entire life, ive been back stabbed by someone that i knew. its kinda hurt somehow. tapi, yes aku mengaku, tindakan aku balas apa yang kau buat tu, memang keanak-anakan. yes, aku tahu aku sepatutnya handle benda ni dengan cara orang dewasa, tapi ikutkan perasaan marah, marah ini datang dari syaitan, aku tahu tu, aku dah plan nak balas, lebih dari apa yang kau dah buat.

tapi, bila aku fikir balik, kalau aku buat benda tu, maknanya aku akan end up buat kesilapan sama macam kau buat, and im not gonna be you, ever. Nauzubillahiminalzalik.

and, thanks, sebab kau dah bagi aku satu pengajaran besar, satu, jangan percaya semua orang kat sekeliling kita. dua, buat baik berpada-pada, tiga, handle situation dgn lebih matang. empat, arghh. banyak sangat benda yang kau dah bawak dalam hidup aku.thanks, anyway.

rindu =='

i gottta admit that i miss these faces, somehow. hahaha

 aca cik skema

 amalina makcik

 tudung batu b****? hahahahaha

 perhatian: nisa tak kurus, ini cuma ilusion. hahaha

 makcik gedik baju merah

 gedik semua

INSYI SI HOT MAMMA. 

 ainna si kurus :p

 yatyat

bieha gila, cantekk nyaaa. hahahaahahaha :p

waniwani

Path OF Life

everybody passes numerous paths along the road of life. there's always a dilemma when it comes to choosing, and Allah is always the best answer.

ya Allah, guide me to the right path, drag me to the delight future, and please solve my dilemma.

since i was a little girl, i started to watch csi, bone, grey;s anatomy, house and it developed my loved towards a career which i have known that gonna sacrifices a lot of things in my life. making a decision to turn from being an engineer to a doctor is a very big decision that i've ever made in my life, because it involve money, time and feeling.

am i being to selfish that im not even thinking what if i fail on my way to be a doctor, and there's no turning back ever again? where should i place myself? marry a man and being a full time housewife? no. no. no. it's not even me. i sacrifice my feeling, my time, my money and even my SCHOLAR to chase something that i dont even see  it. will it worth my sacrifice.

and. I VOW TO MYSELF THAT IM NOT GONNA WASTE ALL THOSE GOOD THINGS HAPPENED IN MY LIFE.

and for my friends, which i dont prefer to write their name, (cause it gonna make me cry)
thankyou for all the moments, and knowing you is one of the best thing that ever happened to me. im sorry for being a jerk and disturb your life in these 5 month. but, trust me, you're one of the reason why i choose to stay back then, and the reason why i feel doubt to leave Universiti Teknologi Malaysia right now. may the short friendship that we built will remain forever. love you guys.

FIRST LOVE

some people said; our first love will never be forgotten. tadi tibatiba termenonton short film pasal first love; how much it affect our life, not just my life, i bet most of the teenagers had their first love, which i never know whether it turned out into a sweet old story or a nightmare that you dont even want to remember it. but believe me, how bad your first love is, you will remember it for the rest of your life. just like me. but it didnt ended up well somehow. and i might remember it as some kind of nightmare., but it taught me something precious, yes. it did anyway. so, to my first, i dont need to mention your name, cause you know who you are, kankan ;)

this is not my first love, anyway.

tapi sebenarnya, bila fikir balik, aku rasa rugi sebab tak simpan yang pertama untuk yang kekal abadi. regret sebab rasa macam buang masa, duit, semua. dosa pulak makin menimbun. tp betul jugaklah kan, apa yg dah jadi tu jadikan pengajaran, so i VOW to myself that im gonna keep my heart for the one and only, yang halal. InsyaAllah. so Allah, please protect my heart <3

salah sendiri

ya aku sedar semuanya salah aku.

rasa tu memang tak patut wujud

aku bodoh sebab aku tak sedar

aku bodoh sebab aku rasa aku mampu

aku bodoh sebab aku yakin dengan peluang

aku bodoh sebab biar perasaan kuasai aku

aku bodoh sebab biar orang macam kau ambil tempat dalam hati aku

tapi

terimakasih sebab biarkan aku jadi bodoh dan biar aku belajar.

|mirror and heart|

if a mirror
breaks now
all of us
could hear that,

but if a heart breaks now
non of us
could hear that

i can't help asking
my self
why the suffering
of a broken heart is
always silent?