I'm sorry

I'm sorry if I didn't get the chance to say sorry,
I'm sorry if it didn't end as how we want it to be,
I'm sorry for those moments I've hurt you,
I'm sorry for being me,
I'm sorry for everything.

I'm sorry for being me. I'm imperfect. I'm full of flaws.

I'm sorry for being me.

Penat

Penat jaga hati orang.
Penat.

To be happy

All the pain in her eyes;
No one could see it. No one could reach it.

The pain that she's been hiding because she thinks nobody would care.
The pain that she's been living have already made her a home.
The pain that she thinks nobody would ever care.
Because all of her pain, she's been hiding it well.

Because she chose to be happy and she kept all the pain away.
Because instead of living in sadness she just wanted to be happy.

Nothing more but a girl

'Of all the pain in this vain, I train myself restrain'

I want to be loved even if I don't know how to love.
I want to be cared even if I don't know how to care.

All these walls I've built kept me away from all those bullshits.
And kept me away from all the love I think I deserve.

Nothing could speak my broken heart.
Nothing could speak my broken soul.

I've tried my best to fix it.
But the harder I tried, the higher the wall I built.

Day to day
I lost my love to cherish
I lost my soul to sing
I lost my heart to live

I keep telling myself I'm a queen. I'll fix myself.

But now I realize I don't need anything but a person to save me.

Because I am dear world; nothing more but a girl

Crying

I'm not crying.
Not because of I'm strong
But the fact that I'm so fragile I can't even handle my own breakdown.

I can't handle my tears.
That's the reason why I stop crying.

Memberi Tanpa menerima

Aku mungkin sedikit aggressive, mungkin sedikit angkuh, dan ada ego yang sangat tinggi. But i know what i want, and i pursue it, fast and furious. Because my eyes are selective and picky, and i do not let wild hearts come into my territory. I see those who i want, only those who i want, because i want them. I put efforts, i go beyond the distance, aku berikan masa dan ruang, walau tiada komitmen ataupun declaration. Kenapa? Sebab aku percaya akan konsep memberi tanpa  menerima. 

And the least you could do is to not break my hearts. Or atleast break it nicely.

Take me away

Kill me.
Take me away.
I just don't wanna live anymore.